i wanna kiss you underneath the stars.. (L)

sooo... this post is kinda late. i wasnt really on the computer on sept4. ahaha ill tell you about that day first.

sept4- so, i was supposed to go watch a movie with my sps boys. and fishy... but no. someone sold out on me once again. AHAH FUCKER! anyways, so i decide to go to the pne, again with my nd friends since i havent seen them for sooooooo long :( and uhm on my way there paolo texts me asking me to come out so yeah... im down. fml me and stella rode the revelation! <33 yes! hahah fun shit. i find it more fun to go to the pne with a big group of friends more variety or partners :D:D HAHAAH. anyways after pne me and stella went to chill iwth cholly and p and go everywhereeee....... then home. i get dropped off last (at monicas) and so we call her down to chill cause none of us wanted to go yet.. yeah we chilled from like 2-4am.. wtf right? yeah i know. an hour of talking... and p's car dies! HAHAHAH we tried to find someone with jumpercables but no one could help us :( then i found this guy and asked him and he didnt have them either but he called a 'buddy' and got it for us :) thank the lord

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERRY!

sept5- i wake up at 1145 ish? and find some scratches looking thing on the left side of my body! LIEK WTF. i have no idea how i got it.... but not only that. i freaking woke up SORE AS HELL. you dont understand it was so hard for me to have my morning stretch :( fml. uhmm..... me monica and rhea just sat around ate mcmuffins with PUBES IN IT!! :@ then computer obvs..............and we got bored so whatd we do? take pictures and make videos HAHA! the usual. then at 3 her mama comes home and says were gonna go to church (i havent been to church in like a year... or almost a year!) but w/e im down to go... BUT then my dad calls and says meet me at royal oak at my shop so we go... and hes not even there!? wth.. boringest day of my life.

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yeah ..... so. i have no idea what to write about. the last time i wrote on blog spot was like a year ago? i think.. i dont usually write my feelings on the computer unless its something really memorable or exciting :$ HAHA. but anyways, i guess i can write about how im pretty PISSED OFF about my CELLPHONE :):) so not pissed off. HAAHAH yeah right. it was supposed to take 3-4 days as of august 11! yeah? it took fucking 3 WEEKS its september first bitches. annnnnnnnnnd, im dying. no one really understands they just think im weird lmao! oh well. but my fajina is gonna go with me to try and fix it......... thats nice of him :) muahaha <3 and uhm what else what else??

omg i need to tell you about yesterday! FML hahahha, k so i chilled with my nd boys and girl. HAHA cause stellas not fucking here... so yeah. chris keempeh justin mikey cjay ryan ron jc xandrei yeaahhhhhhh we all met up bought tickets to see FINAL DESTINATION 3 in 3-D!! OMG. haha yes, its 18A but we wanted to be little rebels and experiment with xandreis ID. sooo we line up to get in, and me and xandrei dont get ID'd but THE GUYS DO! HAAHHAH poor them, we used dreis id. and it worked! :D fuck yes.. me drei keemp and justin go out to do our 'thangggg' we come back and freaking trip out during the whole movie i swear to god i was dying iwth those people! and the best part was when me and drei were eating a freaking POUTINE COMBO AND TWISTER from KFC. it was sooooooooooooo good. wow! HAHA and i still wasnt full :$:$ anyways we were gonna b**** but then no one else wanted to, so we went home... and i pigged out HARSH, ask gino lmfao! then had a 10 hours sleeeeeeeeep. <3

bye world :)

is confusiong a good thing?

so recently its been all dance and fireworks with me... yeah. but there hasnt been dance anymore before volume 1 fnished, and now we gotta wait two weeks for volume 2 :( sigh. other then that fireworks have been great i mean the beach, dtown, friends, family, everything! but the only thing getting in the way is feelings. recently i havent spoken to you and when we do talk its like nothing. a phone call ONCE everyday? a txt msg twice a week? a msn convo 3-4 times a week? wth is this? a game!? i honestly dont know how i feel anymore.......... something tells me to stay and something tells me i deserve better. but i cant jsut do that to someone.

lately, ive been thinking if i should move on to someone else. someone whos comfortable around me, someone who takes time to talk to me and listens to my problems. someone who shows they love me..? just maybe :s

woooow.

omfg. just about two minutes ago..? i find out he's "in a relationship" ='[ you dont know how bad i want to cry. we actually really liked eachtoher. and thats what i thought. and then suddenly he tells me nows not the right time? my feelings never left me! i guess i didnt mean much to him if he could move on so quickly. you freaking LEAD ME ON! you know how much i HAAATTEEE that? yeah you should. we spoke about everything. and you couldnt handle the fact that everyone already knew about us?!?! just a little sad.. i thought you were more mature than that. but dw im not mad, just dissappointed (y) all those words you said to me. did you even mean half of it? you practically swept me off my feet bud. and now it really hurts me to think that YOU.. would do that to me, you said it yourself: "i dont wanna break your heart, and have someone like you walk out of my life :( i just dont want to enter a relationship with drama" i understood that but i didnt know that you would go behind my back an start looking for someone new.. now i know why you had so many excuses not to go out with me. i knew from the beginning you liked me, and my feelings grew stronger for you. and then a week after that dance, things started to go down hill? hmm. it was that girl i saw you at the mall with.. wasnt it? yeah, she prob. knew about me; the way she was staring at me! i was jsut smiling.

first, i cant believe you had to lie about something like that. you were the FIRST guy i liked in my first year at cambie (U) i guess my friend was right. you are a flirt? i didnt believe her.. and i tried to find out myself. but, you prove me wrong. honestly.. i had faith in you i had faith that when that one day came.. where you asked me out we'd last quite a while. but i thought wrong. "thats what i get for wishful thinking, i should've never let you enter my door" yuupp yuup. hows it feel? the feeling you totally isolated me.. after what i TRIED doing for you. hmm? dont worry im not mad. live your life.......... as long as your happy, im happy? i just want the best for you. and i wish the best couldve been me :( p.s. my feelings are still here (L) :$

hello mr.nice guy :)

alright. so i havent wrote on here in FOREVER : but i dont know. alot has been going on in my life lately! almost the past month? and not even enough time to write a god damn blog.. hmm well in january i started to like someone new. he knows who he is :) hahaha, mm i told him. and later after that things went well. then a few weeks after it went down hill like wtf?! right? i guess its just my luck with boys in cambie :( which sucks! i jsut hope that later on things'll work out right for teh both of us (Y)

aside from all that love stuff,
my life has been pretty good.. i went to visit my ND friends <3 WOO.
strictly was a blast, especially those hot boys!
partys have been very nice
just temptations was a bummer.. but i spent it with him :):)
boys ruled my life (n) that was a b*tch
my single group had mixed feelings, and still do!
i dyed my hair back to purple! <33 yaaayy
hmmmm and thats about it now i hope march has something better in store for me, instead of all this useless drama! GAAAD! au revoir m'loves