woooow.

omfg. just about two minutes ago..? i find out he's "in a relationship" ='[ you dont know how bad i want to cry. we actually really liked eachtoher. and thats what i thought. and then suddenly he tells me nows not the right time? my feelings never left me! i guess i didnt mean much to him if he could move on so quickly. you freaking LEAD ME ON! you know how much i HAAATTEEE that? yeah you should. we spoke about everything. and you couldnt handle the fact that everyone already knew about us?!?! just a little sad.. i thought you were more mature than that. but dw im not mad, just dissappointed (y) all those words you said to me. did you even mean half of it? you practically swept me off my feet bud. and now it really hurts me to think that YOU.. would do that to me, you said it yourself: "i dont wanna break your heart, and have someone like you walk out of my life :( i just dont want to enter a relationship with drama" i understood that but i didnt know that you would go behind my back an start looking for someone new.. now i know why you had so many excuses not to go out with me. i knew from the beginning you liked me, and my feelings grew stronger for you. and then a week after that dance, things started to go down hill? hmm. it was that girl i saw you at the mall with.. wasnt it? yeah, she prob. knew about me; the way she was staring at me! i was jsut smiling.

first, i cant believe you had to lie about something like that. you were the FIRST guy i liked in my first year at cambie (U) i guess my friend was right. you are a flirt? i didnt believe her.. and i tried to find out myself. but, you prove me wrong. honestly.. i had faith in you i had faith that when that one day came.. where you asked me out we'd last quite a while. but i thought wrong. "thats what i get for wishful thinking, i should've never let you enter my door" yuupp yuup. hows it feel? the feeling you totally isolated me.. after what i TRIED doing for you. hmm? dont worry im not mad. live your life.......... as long as your happy, im happy? i just want the best for you. and i wish the best couldve been me :( p.s. my feelings are still here (L) :$

hello mr.nice guy :)

alright. so i havent wrote on here in FOREVER : but i dont know. alot has been going on in my life lately! almost the past month? and not even enough time to write a god damn blog.. hmm well in january i started to like someone new. he knows who he is :) hahaha, mm i told him. and later after that things went well. then a few weeks after it went down hill like wtf?! right? i guess its just my luck with boys in cambie :( which sucks! i jsut hope that later on things'll work out right for teh both of us (Y)

aside from all that love stuff,
my life has been pretty good.. i went to visit my ND friends <3 WOO.
strictly was a blast, especially those hot boys!
partys have been very nice
just temptations was a bummer.. but i spent it with him :):)
boys ruled my life (n) that was a b*tch
my single group had mixed feelings, and still do!
i dyed my hair back to purple! <33 yaaayy
hmmmm and thats about it now i hope march has something better in store for me, instead of all this useless drama! GAAAD! au revoir m'loves